Tuesday, June 24, 2014

I'd Be a Creator



If I was a painter I'd be a creator,
And I'd paint the foreground dark
and the city scape
upside
down
in the sky,
so that the streetlights would shine like stars
and those in the darkness
would look up,
longing for their company.

If I were a painter I'd be a creator,
And I'd paint bitter people
stout
and hopeful people
tall
and their body parts would match their use
based on internal characteristics.
Held hands for those
satisfied to be content.
Blind eyes for the ignorant.

If I was a painter I'd be a creator,
And I'd paint every God that ever was
and still is
fighting for first place
in the heads of the citizens
of history, who
under the
bit
bow down to the ancient rivers
and drink up
death.

If I was a painter I'd be a creator,
And I'd paint me serene
in a quiet pool
alone.
Water in my ears,
I'd hear only the vibrations of myself,
ripples of my movements
hitting the metal frame
and coming back to me.
A fruitless journey
in a large bucket: floating,
drifting, untouched
through calm, cool, time
that ends

with suffocation.

If I was a painter I'd be a creator,
And I'd paint in
diluted colors,
so even the brightest reds
of gore and war
are bleached away
to a faint yellow-gray
and mistaken for sunshine.
The lives, stories, mistakes, success, corruption, alienation, happiness
of animals
on the verge of extinction:
all a muddy,
faded,
blur on canvas
as if nothing ever
stuck. Ever
mattered. Ever
shook this world so hard
that it vomited
whatever was worth keeping.
Even that,
Still a light yellow.
Easily piss.

If I was a painter I'd be a creator,
And I'd take my sleeve and wipe the canvas clean.
They'd call it art.
They'd call it abstract.
I'd call it quits
and leave the room.

2 comments:

  1. Emily... Wow.. This one so far is my absolute favorite... That's a brilliant idea of using colors to fade away the color of war, what a beautiful thought... This is absolutely brilliant..

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  2. :) thanks. I appreciate you taking time to read through and comment. I wrote this one during my junior year of college and it was one of my favorites at the time too. It was a very frustrating time where I wanted everything to be simpler and I think that's part of where it all came from.

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